Your blood by Aurora
“Do you feel it travel in and out your heart?Needles, stitching up the big holes
You prepared 1for battle, as you fell apart?
...I refuse to die”
There is so much tension in my body. The stiffness in my hands, how my upper back aches, my jaw clenches. I try my best to be aware of my posture, how I store my stress, and the way I clench myself as if I am bracing for an assault. Perhaps that is just the cons of being a care giver, there is so much strife.
I must find my way, and hope the next time we talk I have good news. Not, the woes of someone who has fallen, and is lost. Despite the “horrors” I still persist. I always show my best self, and whenever I don’t feel at my best-I know how to express myself, in a delicate matter in need of a word or assistance.
My body is going through a lot of trauma. Some days I feel okay, then some days I feel stiff as a board. Aches everywhere, pains, tension. So I would lay down, and try to deep breathe. Lately, Aurora’s songs are a nice consoling song that uplifts one up.