Friday, December 6, 2024

I know you done try'n

 There is that inner child within me, that loves to share; however, in today's society people are closed off, and it makes a person like me that is full of spark have their shine dull. We are often called naive.

So, let’s talk about being neurodivergent, in a society full of closed off minds.

Everyone is fighting their own battles. But people forget, we are all the same in the end, and we must be kind to one another. Honor each other’s unique differences and admire our bond's ability to nurture you. 

Yet in this life…. 

I can easily get attached to others, or I do not at all. It is as though I was being taught to not believe in a true bond. Because people in this life mostly thrive in conditions where they are closed off, private and have no interests in being close to others. 

Also, if you over share a lot it can come across as an odd behavior. 

These things ultimately loosen the attachments of how I feel towards a bond that I thought were close to me. Because I am naturally someone that pours my soul out. 

I had to learn the hard way, to be accepting of letting go and not flowing in the ways where I thought bonding was supposed to be.  I have been told before that I tend to be childish or naive where it concerns the art of bonding. But they are wrong!

Yes, the world can be cruel and unjust-but it doesn’t mean that is the reality. A reality is what you make of it, and so if I feel my reality is nurturing, full of love, and nothing but respect as well as efforts for one another-then so shall it be!

There are people that will try invalidating your experiences 😟

There are still genuine connections, and true love out there. 

You just have to unlearn bad cycles of what you allowed in your life, and tune into who you want to be versus what life made you to be. 

I can easily have succumbed to being untrusting, but I truly believe life is full of wonderful people. 

I love the connections I have with my friends now.

And even if I don’t get it right all the time, I still want to embrace the process. Because what life would be if I constantly questioned everything? It’s so exhausting doing that. I can’t be a bird in the cage, and fear connections. 

You cannot regulate other people's emotions, that isn’t your responsibility. 

You can show your support for others and tell them how much they mean to you. Relationships with others are best mutual. It is exhausting to keep guessing what you mean to others because the other person is inconsistent. Eventually it becomes emotional abuse, when you are trying to show your love and care for another-when they are too busy putting up walls. Eventually, the bond is not regulated, and you have question your own emotions being dysregulated by trying to get through to another. 

In the meantime, I will just be myself, and flows will naturally do so.