Hope in the stars

 Where to find hope? Where there is none.
I look into myself and remember all the times I held on when it felt like my world was ending. 
Perhaps it is there, the hope that lives within me.

I used to feel certain about where my life was going, but now my mind is filled with troubling thoughts. Is there someone out there for me? Will I find a job? What does the future hold?

These questions weigh on me, but sometimes I remind myself how important it is to simply appreciate the present moment. 

An old photo of myself.

     This old photo of me serves as a reminder that things do improve. I took it in front of Target, my former workplace. It was an early shift, and I was waiting for my father to pick me up. 

    I looked into the distance, where only a few cars were parked since it was still 8AM, the crack of morning. It felt so solemn yet so wonderful, as if the bright morning carried a sense of hope. Perhaps it was the gathering of crows in the parking lot, or maybe it was simply the appreciation of the trees. You noticed them more when there were no cars, no noise—just me, the trees, and the birds.

I once had a thought: "I won't be sad forever." And I was right. There were times in my life when things were going well, and other times when everything seemed to fall apart. I think that's the essence of life—it's all about intervals, shifting between highs and lows.

You just got to be willing to place some faith, and effort into your life. After all, it is yours to move. 

I know it's easier said than done, but I also know it's possible! I've faced plenty of lows in my life, but what made it all worthwhile were the experiences with people. Even when I felt alone, I knew deep down that wasn't true. Most of the time, I had friends who lifted me up, kept me occupied, and helped me navigate through it all.

This won't last forever; I believe in myself and my ability to keep evolving into a beautiful, courageous soul.